As I’ve noted a few times since the relaunch of the blog, the past few years found me in a place where I simply didn’t have as much time for writing as I once had.
And the truth is, I still don’t.
Between work and school and kids and all the things that come along with living life in the fast-paced 21st century, I’ve found it difficult to keep writing as a part of my daily schedule.
Honestly, I’m really not sure how other people do it. I feel like I have my life fairly well organized and I think I’m somewhat put together, but I look at other people and the sheer amount of things they appear to be able to get done in a day and, well, I’m exhausted. I’m at the point where if I don’t have something in my ‘To Do’ list that I have on my phone, I will 100% forget to do it.
Most days end up feeling like a marathon sprint, just running from task to task hoping to be able to get all the things done, so much so that by the end of my day, all I really want to do is collapse in my chair and fall asleep.
I’m actually surprisingly good at time management, but I sometimes wish I didn’t need to manage my time quite so much.
I’ve long dreamed of the moment in which I can quit my job because of some sort of massive influx of wealth. And the one thing I always tell myself I’m going to do when that magic moment happens is to take a nap. My wife laughs at me when I tell her this, and the reality is that depending on how that money comes about, I’d probably be a little too excited to actually get any sleep, but my million dollar wish almost always ends up being a nap.
Because if there’s one thing I miss most in this world, it’s sleep. I’m even past the point where the kids keep me from sleeping. Sure, my boys both get up as soon as the sun is poking its head through the trees, but they generally bother my wife first, who then sends them off to be quiet in front of some screen. But there’s still so much to do! I find myself in my sleep trying to think of how to complete all the things.
And I guess there’s just some small part of me that believes that whenever I finally win the lottery, I’ll feel, at least briefly, as though I can take a little bit of a break and sleep.
So, this is just a short post to tell you that I’m tired. And that I’ve been thinking about putting a nap onto my task list for the day.
But instead, I’m going to get some editing done. And then some work. And then some school. And then I should probably clean that absolutely disgusting bathroom. But not until after I have a lightsaber battle on the front lawn because my youngest is getting stir crazy.
Adam Oster: Unfocused Creative 