I don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea. I’m a hard worker, and I feel incredibly blessed to be gainfully employed and all of that. . . however, I also have to admit that I often feel rather guilty about the fact that I do, in fact, work for the weekend.
I’m not a huge fan of my job. I don’t receive much for feelings of accomplishment during my times spent doing things for my employer. It is nothing more than the source of all of my financial wealth. . . It allows me to continue living.
The problem is, of course, that during the 40 hours a week that I spend there, I feel as if living is put on hold. I’m not complaining.
I am, however, stating that this is a sad state of affairs. There are officially 40 hours of every week that basically don’t exist in my life. 40 hours of each week are spent with me constantly checking the clock wishing that time were going by faster. . . although I also sometimes wish time would go by slower during that same time so I could actually complete the overwhelming pile of tasks I need to complete during a workday.
In other words, during my work day I do something I had long stated I would never do. . . I find myself wishing that time would go faster, effectively shortening my life. I love life, I love all the things that come with it (except my job), and the one thing that I never want to wish for is less of it.
And then the weekend finally comes. . . It’s a glorious time. . . but I find my mind still stuck in the mindset of the work week. . . at least at first. It takes me quite a bit of time to adjust to the weekend, remembering that these are the mornings that I enjoy, getting to sit around with my kids and watch a couple of cartoons before heading off onto our adventures.
I need to stop working for the weekend. I need to find something within my occupational life that I enjoy enough that I don’t get in that mindset any longer, because it is causing me to lose out (somewhat) on the times that I want to enjoy.
I’m still not certain how to do it, but I am sitting here right now, working on getting my brain ready for the weekend that will be here in a matter of hours. . . and hoping I can pull out that Slip N Slide again. . .
Have a good one!